Hey, guys! So I have had a crazy rollercoaster of a time here at USD and boy do I have things to share!
Let me just say that by far the hardest thing I have ever done was moving in. I’ve never felt so miserable and lonely in my life. The first 4 days were extremely isolating and, as I am sure many of you have experienced, the worst part is feeling like no one really knows you. I felt like everyone was judging me or ignoring me and of course faced a good amount of crippling insecurity. I still do not like the idea of having to “prove” myself–my likes, dislikes, wishes, habits, abilities, etc.–to all the people I meet. Here are some cons I have noticed so far here at USD.
I never realized how party-centric it is here at USD. What happens when a bunch of rich kids with too much freedom get together? Major turn-ups everywhere.
I have never felt like I was super pretty or super ugly, but every person here is so attractive, and knows it, and it has really dented my self esteem. A vast majority of girls here wear a full face of makeup everyday and really trendy clothes (mostly boots with heels, crop tops, shortest shorts ever, crop tops, expensive outfits, CROP TOPS, LIKE, MADE OF YARN) and the guys are all over them. I am in an all female dorm so I don’t know any guys, and I am so afraid of talking to them because I look like trash.
I feel like I’m the only freshman girl on campus who can’t seem to fit in, and I haven’t even shown my full-on weirdness, so I’m really concerned for the rest of the semester. I feel like I can’t show my full self to anyone and it’s really hard to look on the bright side when you alway are getting pushed down. I never realized that I would still be freaking out about where to sit at lunch in college, but meal times are insanely difficult.
I cried myself to bed for the first 3 nights because of how preoccupied I was with making friends and fitting in, but you never know how much things can change in a day. I have actually met some really great people in the most unexpected of places and have a ton of other good things to report too! Here are some pros of USD!
USD is the most gorgeous campus on earth. It’s incredible! The grass is green, the sky is blue, the sun is out, the beach is visible from most spots on campus, the buildings are cream color with intricate molding, there are two phenomenal places of worship on campus (the huge Immaculada and Founders Chapel in my dorm!), there are water features all over, and the human specimens are also ascetically pleasing.
USD is a white campus. Most kids are wealthy white children, BUT I have still managed to meet the most diverse group of people I ever have. Currently, my friends are of every race, sexuality, religion, and status. Nothing compares to sitting down at a lunch table with people from India, the Philippines, Spain, Mexico, and France who are here in the USA for the first time. I have even made plans to start an Asian Culture Club with my friend Riya who even taught me some fun India dance!
This school has the best food I have ever eaten. I am so amazed with not only the variety of food, but the pure authentic quality of everything I have eaten. Today for lunch I had the most kick-ass Pho ever and the possibilities are truly endless. Not only that, but there are a ton of off campus places that I can go to to get great food as well. I have never been hungry here.
An LLC is a Living Learning Community and I am in the Social Justice LLC and it is located in an all girls dorm, so despite my sparse encounters with the opposite sex, I do get to maintain a tight sisterhood with my floormates. I love being around people who really are so selfless and kind!
I f**king love the nighttime because some people go out to party, but I have found people who are just like me who prefer to sit in their room with a book or Netflix and while everyone is out partying, that is when I scout out who my potential friends are. Last night I hung out with my neighbors and one of them likes Kpop as well as Portuguese pop, French pop, and even Albanian pop! I love hanging out with the other low-profile people because we just click way better.
I live in the oldest dorm on campus, Founders, and despite the lack of air conditioning, my room is beautiful and has a great view and tons of space for storage. Every person in the hall gets their own sink (there are literally rooms with just sinks and curtains) so I never have to share with anyone or lug around my toiletries. There are also a ton of stalls in the bathroom and two bathrooms per hall so I have been the only one in the bathroom almost every time. The shower rooms are also legit and I have never had to wait for a shower ever. Also, being an all girls dorm has it’s perks because I can walk around with a towel any no one says anything. There is also a commons area with a bunch of couches and a TV that everyone likes to hang out in occasionally.
So, in short, my college experience thus far has been pretty up and down, and it will only get more exciting to say the least with classes starting tomorrow at 8:00 AM! I miss everyone and cannot wait to keep everyone updated. Go Toreros!